Funny you mentioned tripping over the dogs as my shepherd/lab mix misses me and follows me all over the place. I have tripped over him several times as i would come out of the bathroom, or in from the garage or outside and he'd be waiting for me. I saw the thread your started Carol. Thank you. In case you see this one first here's my response:

I am still here. Some how still clean. Ive been over-indulging(?) myself into work. It seems to be the one thing i can still do correctly despite all the other bullshit outside that still affects it. My days anymore look like this:
3am-wake up, work out
5am-eat/hygiene, go to work
6am-1230pm-work
1230-1pm-lunch
1-7pm-work
7-8pm-work out #2
9-10pm home/dinner/sleep
Ive been keeping myself as busy as i possibly can. Not so much to avoid anybody, but to avoid temptation. I discovered during that two weeks i clean, the more i exercise the better and quicker my body feels. My mind is a different story. The only thing I've learned for dealing with mind is distraction. Because of what I do for a living, I have taught my mind to ignore my body's wants. Certain things I do require a lot of physical exertion with minimal food or sleep. Sometimes neither for days. So physical pain and discomfort I can work through much more easily than mental discomfort. Its when my mind starts saying it needs meth, I don't know what to do with that. So I do the only thing I can think of: put myself in a place where I'm supervised and if I snap at someone no one cares because thats just part of our day to day life. During the week somewhere I still attend counseling for myself and my marriage.
So i do apologize about the lack of contact here. I am just using the resources i have the best i know how. You guys have been more of a help than i can put into words. I will always remember and be thankful for this site and its members. Im not really much of a social type of person (another benefit of meth, id talk to anyone) but i will make an effort to keep you guys informed. Thank you for your continued support.

Also, i can totally relate to the drinks, but from a different perspective. My dad was stone cold alcoholic up until the day he died from complications of alcoholism (during which time i was treating him in conjunction with doctors who apparently forgot how to read). That was when i also began using meth. I wouldnt dispute that time period was a huge contributing factor. But back to what i was saying, he used to be the same way. I remember taking a sip of a soda one time, spitting it out and yelling "what is that!?! Its disgusting!!" He laughed and said "its a manhattan". While Ive had many drinks in my life, ive still never order or made another manhattan. Haha. I have a four day weekend this weekend. Friday was spent running errands and staying away from the house. Even took the harley out. No one was home but me and i know boredom was another reason for using so i thats why i stayed away. Today i slept in. Didn't wake up till almost noon. I think I'm going to get my oldest son and do a father-son project today-pull the power steering pump in the bronco. I died last time we went rock crawling. My wife and I were tossing around the idea of seeing if the kids will watch the baby and us getting out for an hour or so tonight. I'll try and check in later today. Take care guys.