Oh she knows. Ive tried telling her i cant mentally deal with things the way i used to (hell even that was borderline acceptable) but definitely cannot deal with it now. It goes in one ear and out the other. I try and go hide in the garage, what does she do, comes and finds me. Its like she likes to see how far she can push me then is like "if you hit me ill call the cops" the only thing i can think sometimes, and no i dont say it either, is "!+@%* if i hit im not stopping". I want to make this clear to everyone: I have NEVER hit her. Yes i did grab her wrist once and i pinned her against a wall once. I am not proud to admit either of those as i am and have always been a firm believer in not putting your hands on a woman in anger. Just another example of how the effects of meth have @%+%%* me up. I cant control my thoughts but most of the time i can control my actions and all of the time there is a line i wont cross.