I can't recall if you mentioned that your wife knows or not I don't believe you did but if she does maybe you should have a sit down with her and say please please don't make this harder for me than it has to be she should understand and also keep it mind that none of these things are great and good things and some are costing you for sure but none are the end of the world and I know it is very hard but try to keep things in perspective I hope things start to calm down and get easier soon being that you are still living your life day to day it should pass sooner than you think my biggest mistake this time I quit I believe was putting life completely on hold although I am not so sure I could have made it through this time anyother way it was a very long and hard run I made this time and it really got in my head like no other run I ever had