it seems like a totally different life. i'm not even the same person. id say thank god, but truthfully i have myself to thank. i'm glad i've stuck with it. i like thinking clearer. i still appreciate so meany little things i always took completely for granted when all my focus was on my buzz, and scoring more meth, seeking sex to feel better. but i still bounce off the walls at times because i feel to present in the hear and now at times.

i have my highs when i feel good, then other times \it feel like ive crashed and cant appreciate it and feel bored. r as chumbawumba would sing.

i get real down, but i get up again. guess i'm still moody, but no longer do i think im manic depressive, its just lives up and downs.

OH. I haven't taken my pills yet. I'll feel better after I take my lexapro- anti depressant. Beats being in a depressed rut like depression.

still .

How you doing today Shattered?