Hey Shattered - does it occur to you that Phoenix immediately identified you might have some concurrent disorders going on. eg this behavior and anger may be a mixture of ptsd and meth ? Dont bite the hand man.From what your saying getting help might be imperative.

I dont know what the answer is to your job predicament but it is often said in recovery that those things we place above our recovery will be the first we lose. I`m not even exactly sure i understand what all this piss testing stuff is about. I thought you had stopped using ? If you stop using for even a couple of days it would make all those numbers irrelevent.