Thank you. I hate that I got myself to this point. Recently its been nothing but bad days. My only saving grace is that I can take that intense focus and plunge into work. My job is one that I can work 36hrs a day 7 days a week and not be done. Caught up, maybe. But never finished. I know the next few days are going to be hell. Another reason I'm documenting this. My own personal reminder in the event i try and justify my own memories of what I've done. You know...."it's not my fault, if she'd only have done blah blah blah" "it's not my fault, if that person wouldn't have pissed my off they wouldn't be in the hospital" etc. One minute I'm rational the next I'm looney tunes!