Jamie, I am so sorry.
I did not mean to suggest that you were not able to forgive him,
I was totally referring to Jokersgirl, and her husband.

It must have felt like rubbing salt into a wound for you.
I am sorry.

Chances are very good that the reason your husband had the energy to go looking for scrapmetal,
Is because the fellow he went with and your husband were using meth, to keep them awake..

At this point, in your husband's addiction,
Even those brief moments when he seems *to be there*
Are going to be dictated by his meth use.

In order for the two of you (three of you, counting your child)
To have a healthy, trusting, and honest relationship,
He really is going to have to quit using....
 If jokersgirl was still using, her husband would still be suffering anger and feeling detached, emotionally.

My relationship with my husband, was very bad,
During our active meth use...
I know what you are going through..
Even though I was also addicted to meth,
I still know the longing and the loneliness that you must be feeling..

If he wants to continue using,
And does not care to make the effort to stop,
You may have to find a way to detach, for your sanity's sake,
For Love, for your child.

This does not need to be permanent, by any means.
In my case, we were separated for over 6 years,
(He was in prison)
But now, that is all in the past and we have spent the last three years , together, and meth free.
What we have now would not be possible if one or the other were using....