I don't know if this will be helpful or not but I am a black out knock down drag out drinker. I have been since my first drink and is the main reason I started using meth, so I could drink like a normie LOL, sorry, its just that with what I know now about the disease of addiction, compared to my thinking then.... wow.

Anyhow I am not a natural fighter, in fact I hate violence, and am incapable of hurting someone I love, add alcohol, or certain drugs, and that changes.....

There, was that helpful?