thank you for your response!
We have been having marriage therapy once  week, he goes to individual therapy once a week ever since he came out of rehab, bout 8 months ago. He is going to AA meetings 3 times a week.  I had a feeling that our relationship has been slowly improving. I told him how I feel and that sometimes I have nightmares about him using again. When I asked him about how he feels, he would just say he cannot talk about it now because he is too ashamed.
When I ask him why he did it again, and why didn't he confide in his sponsor/therapist/ AA friends, he did not have an answer. All he said he did not feel enough support from me and it hurt him to see that I still don't fully trust him.
PS - you are right, I have a hard time talking to him now w/o getting into argument. It is bad.

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