I was hoping it would Travis. I know it sucked when I felt that way and didnt know if was ever going to change and how the hell I was ever going to be happy if it didnt. All I knew was how I felt.

I remember people told me I would have to re-learn how to enjoy life and that just sounded stupid. Then when I would give it a try from time to time what I felt was so ''little to little a little to late'' it just wasnt worth the effort.

But really thats what I had to do and eventually I started feeling those little sparks. Try different things, talk to different people until you feel it too then persue it for a while. If the spark goes out dont get down on yourself its not your inability to feel it just what ever it was didnt light your fire.

For me it really has been a process of learning how to live again. From what I enjoy to what I dont. Then being cool with what ever it is.

Ive herad it said we cant think our way into another way of living we have to live our way into another way of thinking.

I wish you all the happiness in the world my friend.