As far back as I remember I've  been using something .  Alcohol at age 7  all the way through I'll be  57 next month .

   So maybe I'm lucky in some sense that I don't  have any clue what life is like except now that I'm recovering .

  Without a doubt any day is better without the drama in my life , oh not to say I still don't stumble into it from time to time ,it's just how I try to handle it now .

  I am addict ,  addiction  .. I like my new one serenity .


  The most difficult challenge I faced in recovery was forgiving myself  and remembering that I had . 
 
    I remember as I mourned  my "loss "  of .. I forgot to see the beautiful life that was mine .   It's like someone who waits and believes they have  to die to be happy and forgets to live on this wonderful garden planet we're on .  smiley: wink