....We all mourn the loss of meth.  It was EVERYTHING to us at one time.  We mourn for it for as long as we do for a loved one who dies, sometimes even longer.  It does change us down to our very souls.  It takes something away from us that we NEVER get back.  Rape also takes away something that you NEVER get back.  We must learn how to live and enjoy life all over again.  That takes years to do, and it is NEVER easy, but it definitely is worth it.  Carol