Next time I won't run away from my problems. It just creates more. I think I've realized that I need to grow up. I'm 26! I need to start moving on with my life. No more. I've now been there, done that, and realized that I can't control it. Tomorrow is a new day.

On a related note, I think I want to spend New Years alone. Alone in my room with a bottle and not a bag. It will be sad, it will be reflective. I hope it will have a maturing effect on me in the new year. Yeah, I know alcohol isn't the answer, and I'm not going to replace one with the other, but at least it will make me feel like I'm celebrating.