Abyss - I'm here for you.  Please don't do it.  If you need to get out of the house take a walk around the block.  If you want to talk to someone in person email me and I will give you my home phone number.  The more times you fall off, the harder it is to get back up.  It sounds to me like you are bored, and boredom is our worst enemy.  Read a book, or do something foolish like getting a paint by number picture and paint it.  It may sound dumb, but it can keep you occupied for several days, and when you finish it you actually have something nice that you can put on the wall to remind yourself of those rough hours that you needed to get through in the beginning of your recovery.  If you have a bad ankle, then meth will only make it worse.  Sure you will have fun for a few hours, and then what?  Then you are back at day 1 all over again.  I have been so proud of you, and I still am.  Please don't use today.  Take it an hour at a time, and fight the urge to go get it.  The fight will never get any easier.  We ALL have to go through it.  I will be hurt if you use today, because I will KNOW that meth has won again.  Like I have said before I can't stop you from using. Nobody can.  I can only be your friend and help you through the rough spots.  I hope that you choose well today.  If not, then day 1 again it will be. Only you can make that choice.  Your friend, Carol