Day 10 (Double Digits, YAY!!!) . . . Just for today. What more can I say? You're right, there's no momentum building . . . right now it just seems so endless. Am I going to be counting the days clean for the rest of my life and all of the sudden change my mind and use again? I don't get it. There was so much enthusiasm last week. I made it through Christmas, yay. Now New Years. My options seem to be spending the night alone in my room, going to bed early and waking up into yet another abysmal year or going out, getting high and spending all night playing games with my friends. Spending New Years alone is going to be hard. I don't know. Maybe it's the come down from Christmas, but suddenly the world seems a lot less optimistic.