Today, I didn't fail. I wanted to. Oh how I wanted to. I didn't. I went Christmas shopping, I bought lunch, I'm going to test run a recipe for Christmas. I woke up in a horrible mood, I could have failed, but I didn't. I don't know what tomorrow will bring, but today I didn't use. It was payday, so this was the hardest day I've had in this adventure. Will someone please tell me that they're proud of me? I just want to crawl into bed and forget about life, and especially addiction.