This is a merry-go-round. It is never ending unless you get off of it..Kinda like addiction and using. when you use, you are going no were. in a vicious cycle. It may be fun for a while. Off the ride there is so much to see and do that has so much more meaning in your life...Life is so short.  Get away from the stuff as soon as you can. I have 3.5 years and am soon grateful today that I am still alive. Cravings are almost impossible to dismiss or get past without help. Reach out and keep reaching.