Abyss - Many sites may seem calous to you, and maybe they are.  Meth addicts are not thought highly of anywhere.  Thats just plain fact.  Don't worry about what other people say, or how they say it.  All I want you to do right now, is to worry about youself right now.  There will be plenty of time later to worry about things like this, but this is not the time for it.  You do not seem to realize that some people NEVER come back from meth use.  NOBODY knows where that line is, so don't play with it.  Quit while you still can.  There may come a day when you are no longer able to quit.  Any of us oldtimers here can name off dozens of our friends who did not make it, and who are dead now.  You're still young, and have a long life ahead of you, so why screw it up.  Try to get some sleep.  The more you sleep, the less time you have to drive yourself crazy.  Your friend, Carol