I haven't even finished reading the comments, I'm sorry Carol. You did offer your friendship and because I was having a bad day, feeling guilty about eating so much, craving, lashing at everyone, I took it out on you too. That was really unfair of me. You offered your friendship even though you didn't have to. You've been clean for five years and you could be spending your time enjoying life for the first time and trying to never think about the drug again and yet you choose to spend your time here, checking every few hours to make sure I'm okay. It's been a long time since someone offered me that type of friendship and I didn't think about what they were getting in return. In fact, I was like that long before I started using, and using and coming down just made it worse. Still these are excuses, and all I want to do is apologize. I'm sorry.