Thanks to all of you for for support. I am trying to "embrace" this meeting thing that I so totally don't understand but will continue to try to embrace it and gather all from it that I can.

Where I live there are few options to go to other places to gather other info. I was blessed to find this place and I will try with all that I have in me to learn and acccept.

I know I need help and I want help so bad. I will continue to try. I really need to check in to some kind of rehap but not quite sure how to do that at this point. Looking for info on that. Do not know how to do that but am trying.

Again, I thank you all so much for your support.