Crazy girl - I am going to be 54 years old this month.  I was a hard core meth addict for over 20 years.  I bought ounces for personal use, and I did dozens and dozens of lines each and every day.  The withdrawal itself is not the worst of it.  The craving is the worst of it, and the fear that your body is going to totally shut down unless it gets the meth.  I found that to be more in my mind, then what actually happened.  The first week or two were extremely rough for me, and after that I just slept a lot for months.What was hardest for me was that I couldn't think about anything but meth 24/7 for the first couple of months.  Everyone here has a different story to tell.  Everyone's recovery is different.  If you really want to quit I will make you the same promise that I have made to Abyss.  I will check for messages from you several times a day in case you need someone to talk to.  Sometimes just having someone to share what you are experiencing helps.  They say misery loves company, and that really is true.  I have been there, so I know exactly how miserable it can really be.  Trying to tell some one who has never experienced it is a waste of time.  Talking to someone who has been there can be very reassuring when you hit some rough road, which you surely will.  NO recovery goes completely smooth.  Even treatment centers that you pay a fortune to go to only have about a 10 percent recovery rate.  Its not that they don't try to get you to quit, its just that they can't force you to quit.  If you want to get high, then as soon as you get out, then you're going to get high.  Period.  The odds are against you getting off of it alone, but you can do it.  I did it, and if I can do it, then anyone can do it.  Bye for now.  Your friend, Carol