Hey Abyss - Sure addicts are capable of caring, they just care more about their meth then anything else.  Thats why we hurt the ones we love, and those closest to us.  It is hard to truly care about anyone when you are constantly chasing your next high.  Not to mention that when you are high you are not emotionally available to anyone.  I was a hard core addict.  I bought an ounce at a time for personal use.  I was not your weekly user.  I used every day, dozens of times a day, for over 20 years.  Keep that in mind when I give you advice.  I often tell people that I can't be of much help to someone who just uses occasionally, or someone who has only been using for a short period of time.  I snorted meth for 20 years, I never shot up, not even once.  I didn't need to when I was putting ounces up my nose.  Of course you are going to have cravings.  I craved it every day for the first 3 or 4 months, after that I had days that I didn't think about it at all.  Nobody said that quitting would be easy.  Quitting is hard to do.  You can choose to live, or you can choose to die.  Thats your choice, not mine.  I can help you by being your friend, but you are the one who has to do all of the hard work.  There is nobody there to police you, you need to police yourself.  I don't care whether you or high, or not.  Its not my life, its your life.  I can tell you all of the nasty things about what meth does to your body, your mind, your family, and everything around you.  I can tell you all about how your teeth rot out of your head, the damage that it does to all of your body organs, and the swiss cheese that it turns your brain into, but I can't make you stop.  Nobody can.  If you need a friend, I can do that, but that is all that I can offer you.  Taking it one day at a time is my best advice to you.  Good luck.  As I promised I will check for messages from you several times a day in case you need someone to talk to.  I wish that I could do more for you, but this is the best that I can do.  I quit on my own, and I wish that I had someone around who I could have spoken to, as I believe that it would have made quitting much easier for me. Congratulations for picking yourself up again.  Its so much easier to just stay down once you fall off.  Its picking yourself back up that is hard to do.  Bye for now.  Your friend, Carol