Hey Abyss - I'm glad to hear that you are quitting.  I will be here for you every day for as long as it takes, and that could be a while.  I don't mind, as I have been in your shoes, and I know how you are feeling.

You wrote:  They may be unaware of my suffering, or choose to respect my privacy and are unwilling to confront me, but they care.  Honestly, more than I care about them most of the time.

I doubt if they are unaware of your suffering, but they probably don't know what to do about it.  They love you, and they hate to see you this way.  They want to respect your privacy, as they do not want to drive you away from them.  Confronting you is a lose/lose situation and they know it.  It is highly possible that they care more about you, then you care about them, because meth addicts are not capable of caring about anyone.  You can always have them read some of the meth letters and stories on this website, so they can better understand what you are going through.

For the next few days I will check for messages from you every few hours during the day.  Sometimes it helps just to know that somebody does care.  I had a friend who called me every day for about the first 5 months and would ask me if I was still clean, and when I said yes she would cheer loudly.  It made me feel good, and I know how much that helped me.

I'm so proud of you.  Just take every day one day at a time.  If you fall off, just pick yourself back up and get back on.  Nobody here is going to hate you because you fell off because ALL of us have.  Thats just part of recovery.  I'll be looking forward to hearing from you tomorrow.  Your friend, Carol