smilewasmask wrote:
THANKYOU, Seahorse, for a Wonderful Update.
You gave me goosebumps,
And I can so relate to being grateful for the way addiction has changed your life..
Even through all the hell and chaos I suffered while bound with those self imposed chains,

I also am VERY GRATEFUL for the life I have now.......
Could I have what I have now, without going through what I did?
I just don't know....don"t think so.....

Again, Thankyou!
(And I ALSO would LOVE to see you posting more often!)
XXXxxxxxxxOOOOOOoooooooooo
Thank you smiley: smile

I had to stop posting (and reading, for that matter). Kind of as a detox. I just couldn't come here or even go to NarAnon anymore. It was too much to have it on my mind all the time. I think everyone has a different path, a different way of healing and growing, and that was mine. Some people need to be reminded, and talk about things often. For me, I felt this was holding me back. Not sure if I can explain it properly. But, all the things I learned here and at NarAnon were definitely not forgotten. 

I think I would not appreciate a million things as much as I do now, if I hadn't been through what I went through. Hell and chaos, as you described it. My relationships with my family have improved 1000-fold, and that's just one example.

I'll try post more often!