Goosebumps FOREAL!!!!!


I loved reading you today! You and I are pretty much in the same place and it's a great feeling.

I have learned to be thankful for the good times I shared with my ex. When he was clean he was a wonderful man even if it was all a show (and I believe it was). My side of the street is clean because I know I wasn't lying or faking anything and I still had a blast.

I have also learned to be thankful for the bad times.....because without those I would not be the strong woman I am today. His addiction to meth and my addiction to him have taught me invaluable lessons that I would've never learned otherwise.

ACCEPTANCE is HUGE. It has been for me. I still feel at times that I will never love another man the way I love him. I feel at times like the love never ends.......but.......that is real love, right? And there is nothing wrong with that. It lets me know that I am capable of loving.....really loving.....and who knows what may happen some day. I'm keeping my options open for the future......because I've left the past where it belongs.....finally.....in the past.