Relapse is not a part of recovery for everyone but for a lot of people it is, especially people who have had trauma and have chronic mental health issues. I do not make excuses for my use, my relapsing is a direct result of unresolved issues and my obsession with meth and the life stemming from my OCD traits. Lots of people here don't get that. Some people get clean the first time
and never relapse , some relapse once or twice, some cannot stop relapsing. Some recover and some never do, facts of the disease.