Kevin , the crap or get off the pot comment I have hurt before and it is pure BS. I will get off the pot when I am damn ready. See, you are an addict but what you fail to see is this is a disease and people with diseases have flare ups and don't get better overnight. I am doing the best I know how, I am sure you didn't get better overnight.


Travis your comment about me being a bear in another thread was rude and insensitive ...but I expect nothing less from you.


Lori , I absolutely do not justify using, my disease is strong and powerful and the drug controls me , not the other way around . It is a battle I deal with daily and I am doing the best I know how with what I have at my disposal to recover. I am in love with meth but I hate what it does to me and my mental health issues DO play a major role in me having trouble getting clean. Every doctor has said this.. where is your medical degree ?

MK - After my wife and I pay our rent and bills we have about 50 bucks for the month , so that program would not work for me. I found a psych hospital that has substance abuse unit and a good program and they take medicare which I have. I have an intake Friday at noon. It is 3 days of medical detox , 14 days of rehab, and aftercare 3 days a week for 2 hrs per day. I said I wanted one last use before I went in because I want to do rehab right this time and not have to go again , so hoping to get it out of my system.