Chris I don't feel I justify using .... It is hard to explain but when the urge comes over me I cannot stop myself. Maybe I can get well , I sure hope so. We all have our own battles and no one person can say what another person thinks is wrong. I miss the lifestyle more than the high. I wish I did not miss it cause I know it will kill me but it is a powerful addiction for me , I have tried to beat it for years with little success. Hopefully I can stay clean next few days and then go to get help in rehab.  Why would it be locked up ?  That is absurd,  its freedom of speech and as you can see it has over 130 replies.  Hot topic.
People just seem to ignore the fact that people miss the drug. They pretend the drug goes away and people never think of using and that is just unrealistic.  And I DO NOT talk myself into using, you should not judge someone unless you live in their shoes.   I have an obsessive personality and when the drug calls me I have trouble saying no.  I am not the only one who is a chronic relapser, many people are.  Maybe you should have bypassed the thread if you want to be like that.  Nothing good to say,  don't say nothing at all.

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