Robby99 wrote:
I have an appointment for rehab on the 4th. I am scared because it is making me want to use one last time before then. But it is a positive step I took.

you're going to have to start with not justifying reasons to use... justifying a reason to use is simply getting yourself ready to go outside of your mindset of recovery into relapsing.

stay clean from here on out.. don't give yourself reasons to use.

as to your question or title...
I miss the high sometimes but I don't miss the lifestyle.
Once I start thinking further into my addiction, like past the high.. I can see that I'm a fiend and don't know how to stop, so for me... it's best not to even entertain the thought.

I was going to bypass this thread but after being off line for a few, I was sort of surprised it hadn't been locked by now and was pretty sure you were talking yourself into using.

Take a break from destroying yourself Robby, the longer you're clean, the better you do.