Yesterday I saw this guy giving me the Eye as I went to get the paper at a Book Store.  I knew the look..... "You Looking To

Hook Up" I was a little  flattered but really just kind of   little unnerved aas I looked right into his eyes and could tell... And wondered...

"I wonder if hes got any  favors""... Of course he did, I put my  quarter in the meter,  mumbled No.  "Do you want to Party?"   Uh,  no...

still he followed me into the book store.... Leering at me... Which...  Do I miss it? I thought....  Mixed feelings.....

             Im glad I didnt  fall to whatever tem,ptation I felt,  yet I wondered throughout the day... Where would that have gone...

What exactly had I missed?   Was I more fearful of the guy or the outcome?  Could or should I have gone along to have fun without using.....

That thought never entered into my mind... and Im glad it didn't because if someone hot enough asks you  to follow them and then it  turns you on....

How strong would I be to not just do a Little....as IF It would ever stop there.  

         I really dont miss feeling lost. Nor do I miss only wanting to get high, and hell be damned about anything else.

-------At any time we can be just a trigger or two away from really being Right back where we crawled away from...

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I dont miss it much anymore, but I thought I should share this with everyone because even when we least expect it... Triggers or

temptation do arise or pop up from time to time.   And I am very glad I didnt kid myself into thinking.... how hot it was to feel wanted,

someone actually wanted to fool around with me... More than likely, this guy needed $ or $$ to score more and probabley didn't have a place to go to

or a pot to piss in. To say nothing of the deer in the headlight look of his big black Pupils.

        Anyway Just thought I should share that.   Its a Choice sometimes . And the Right choice is ALWAYS not to use, No Matter What, or WHO asks you.