'85, my story is so similar to yours. You have commented on some of my posts and I just wanted to reach out to you and say bravo!! I, like yourself, have done things that have seemed psychotic! I spent unbelievable amounts of time looking, searching, analyzing........all of these things. At one point during our marriage, I even found a totally different cell phone in his truck! It was a phone that he used to contact his drug buddies, so that there wouldn't be any evidence on the phone bill!! How amazing! To me, that would be exhausting, constantly trying to cover my tracks, living two lives. I would much rather live a life that is true. With the day to day struggles that everyone faces, without any type of addiction effecting their lives, I can't conceive of having time to think of ways to hide things!!

The addict, though, doesn't worry about the day to day.......the bills, the children, the groceries, the insurace, aging parents, etc. Their only worry is continuing their ability to access and use meth.

I am proud of you! Life really does go on! It is hard to forget the person that we loved, but you begin to realize, after no contact, that the addict isn't the person that you loved and commited your life to at all. They have become a liar, theif, cheater, manipulator, user and purely demonic!

Lots of love to you! Keep up the good work!