I know people here have little patience with me but what it basically comes down to is I am scared to quit and leave meth behind but I am scared to die. I cannot stop , I wanna use now but don't.

I feel it all all at once all the time.

I feel the rush through my body all the time, I hate the drug but love it and am scared to use but scared not to.... I don't know what to do anymore... sorry if people think I am a loser but this is me.

I am not any of you. I am STUCK.