It has EVERYTHING to do with God Lisa...... I would be dead if it was not for God. That is one thing that has been the same throughout my whole rollercoaster ride of addiction is that God has been with me through every OD , every near death experience, every come down , etc and I believe with all my heart that God has saved my life and kept me trying. Not everyone gets clean Lisa and not everyone is capable of doing things the way another has done them and that is why suggestions or tough love does not work IMO. Saying to man up to someone who is sensitive and suffers from
SEVERE emotional issues does not work either. What does work is loving someone til they can love themselves and just telling them to KEEP COMING BACK. I do the best with what I have , I truly believe that in my heart. I want to make it .... I always say that I never want to stop using, I just want to stop having bad shyt happen. I do not want to die . I was clean from meth for 17 and 19
months and did make progress but I always used again. They say the more we use the harder it gets each time to come back. I love and hate meth. I come to KCI because I wanna quit but go back to use cause I wanna use. I want both at same time. So imagine how confusing that is.

I AM DOING THE BEST I KNOW HOW....