rehab may or may not help..

if you wake up obsessing..i dunno...i think it could be you just not wanting to deal with reality sober.
as suz said

the power you give it, is just that..YOU ARE THE one giving it power..

i honestly cant tell you how i have almost 6 months now..and I cant tell you when I stop the obsessing part..i do believe, my life and finding purpose and strength to get out of self and trying some meetings in oregon and just breaking away from that routine of thinking i needed to feel that way to 'live'