Of course I miss it, some of it. When it was fun, it was great!

That is why I come here.

I don't want to think about how its fun and forget how it makes me crazy and screws everything up.

Don't glamourize it in your mind. If you let it, and dwell on it, it will drive you nuts.

It's an inanimate object. It doesn't own you. It doesn't care if you get well or not. It doesn't have any power or thoughts or wants.

Thats no different than me saying my Celexa isn't helping much because it wants me to stay depressed.

You can get better. I'm not great, but I'm a whole lot better than I was. I thought I would be over all this mess by now.

I found this thread to be extremely encouraging.

http://methamphetamineabu...-recovery-with-benefits-

I hope that you find peace.