" It pumps your brain up and sucks your life away."


^^^yeap


it seems you ask the same questions, maybe phrase them differently..which i get, but truly someday I believe you will notice that its the same circle...you spin...and with the same fukn results.

at least for me.

i have no more questions..what is the phrase "tap out"

there is not one fuking question i can ask to make it better or worse...

the is issue is for me, if i have to keep fuking justifying my use or behavior...i have a problem..

the problem is, i tried and tried and tried..to make it work...i lose everything...everything of value(my family) my mind...

and when i get this amount of time, i reflect on:

why does it take me to spiral into mass destruction to feel what i feel at this moment,

clarity and peace.

It is my minds obsession on the bad that destroys that...thats the fuking problem..meth is just one of the lil solutions to that dumb ass meaningless obsession.

and then the whole fukd vicious cycles begins..im tired rob...im hoping you will get tired too honey. love you