Sure, I think about meth.

But I'm sane enough to not miss the negatives that far outweigh the excitement I got from using...so I use my self control to remain free from the slavery to meth.

Working the steps helped take away the craving, but I just chose to suck it up and stay quit.

Some people will never stay clean, that's just a fact of life.

Abstinence is not the same thing as recovery.

You said it all before a million times and you've heard it all before a million times. Yet here you are again - at square one. What magic solution do you expect THIS time?