I'd be lying if I said I don't (at times) miss that feeling that meth gave me when I first started using. That feeling we all chased so hard and couldn't seem to catch again.

I know that's a one time deal, or a very short lived deal. I loved that feeling! But I don't love the feelings that come with it. I hated what I became!

If I ever start getting that "stinkin thinkin" I just play the story all the way to the end.... I know where it will lead me and I also know the damage it did to me and some relationships.

I know ICE took a piece of me the first time.... who knows how much it would take the next time? I'm not willing to take that chance!!

Even after 6 years of being clean, I'm not especially pleased with who I am today and I blame it all on my meth use. I blame it on the damage that meth has done to me.

I'm not foolish enough to try a second go round. I learned my lesson!!