Do I ever miss it?

Ha, ha, ha...You mean staying up for 2-3 days at a time, looking like warmed-over death, being all tweaked out, being alone in my own little perverted world, feeling like I wanted to kill myself, fighting with my Lady all the time, etc, etc, etc...

NO, I don't miss any of "it"...And when your brain gets healthy again, if it gets healthy again, you won't either.