jg, indifference is extremely hard to acquire, especially if you are emotionally tied to someone. I, too, wish I had indifference. But we cannot help the way we feel. I think that once you are in your new home, away from all of this, the indifference will slowly come. The emotional ties will fade away, and you will finally be at peace in your life.

Don't beat yourself up over your slip, you have been through a hell of a lot, and I honestly can't say that I might not have snapped too, if I had been through what you have.

oxoxo