Traveller,

I have been a martyr for so long now. I have thought for so long (until about 6 months ago at least) that I was the only one that could help him. He would tell me this. It was a form of manipulation for him. He made me believe that. I know different now. And yes, my BEING had had enough. I snapped. I swear I could write a book.

Abbey,

You are exactly right......he could've had me locked up and I know that. It was a real stupid move, but as I stated earlier......I simply lost all control. And it could've been much worse.
I tried to get a TPO but they told me he had to threaten me in some way before they would issue one......he hasn't done that......I was the threat that night for sure.

My best friend was there (thank God) and she told me it was all my fault for acting like that. She said I should've walked right passed him and locked the door behind me (there is that 'indifference' I was talking about). I just don't possess an ounce of indifference where he is concerned.

Randi,

The environment is as sick as it gets. When I am home alone at night I always leave my daughter's TV on so he thinks she is there and he won't bother me if the kids are home (her bedroom is on the front of the house).

His family are ALL begging me not to move. That is the hardest part. I told them I have to for my own sanity and they just don't seem to understand. They act like I am deserting them......after all he has. It is the saddest thing to me. But I am trying to remain strong.
I was pre-qualified today for a home loan. That means.......a new beginning for me and a new life.....away from the hell that I have been living. I am happy and sad all at the same time.