Hemet ----- I said a prayer for you after I read this.

I cannot comprehend drug addiction. But, I was raised in an alcoholic, abusive home. Started smoking pot ta 12 (my oldest daughter's age - the mere thought of her being who I was then makes me sick), started drinking at 14.

I quit everything for 5 years and then picked back up. It's been a vicious cycle of on and off the wagon.

I pray you find "it" again. I've been diagnosed with....let's see.....chronic depression, PTSD, GAD (generalized anxiety disorder).  I taked meds - they help sometimes.  Other times they don't and I want to jump off a cliff.  I fight that urge because my parents lost my brother to an OD last year and I have 2 kids.  It sucks when the only reason you don't want to die is because of what it would do to those who love you.

I'm here if ya want to talk.