hotwheels...I am sorry for your pain.
 
I don't recall any of my conversation crossing with yours, but I do recall reading quite a few of your post over the last few years.

I just feel the need to be honest from what I've gathered....and I give my honest OPINION with love....

As loved ones, we can hold onto our pain like an active addict holds onto their drug. We have to get to a point where we quit needing that pain....where it is no longer our identity. ONLY YOU can choose to do something about your pain...you are responsible for your own pain and healing.

Our immediate friends and family may not understand us.....that is okay. It isn't their experience or their journey. However, here on this board and in the rooms of recovery, there are many people who understand us. And, we can be grateful for that. I know I've had to learn the hard way.... that just because our family doesn't understand us....it doesn't invalidate our experiences.

Please use the tools of recovery to let go and move on.....otherwise, 5 years, 10 years, etc...from now, you will still be posting the same thing. And, your life will have passed you by.

 

"The point of power is always in the present moment"   - Louise L Hay