Yeah, that's true. This is a heck of time for conceiving you could feel relief and joy.

So many have said good things. I like what riotboy said, "he will have to find and feel relief and joy, and freedom from his addiction, before you get to".

Especially if your happiness is dependent on him. Hence, what Loraura said being so important. If you can let go of his outcome, and know that you did your best, it's going to help you. Like I've told you, I know it's a hard thing to have to do. So far, I've only had to do it with friends, as far as letting them go and just not seeing them during their active addiction. I do have family that are still in active addiction that I do see sometimes. I have to let go of my expectations there.

But if you're waiting and hoping an addict will get clean, hanging all your hopes on them, it's just an impossible situation to put your life on hold for. You need to have some stability, some support, some help in finding your balance.

And it sucks, it's hard. You need help. You deserve that support. You deserve to be able to vent, to talk about it, to cry, to grieve for your hopes and dreams. But you need balance.