he is coming down off dope


that is me...

i cry hard..when i come down..it hurts....

it wont last...

what I do..is call people here..packing for oregon...watch tv..

handle my biz at home...and distract my head as much as I can until i know I can sleep..and do it all over again...



im not to be trusted alone...i have 2.3 days til my kids dad is here..this HELPS ME TREMENDOUSLY...

but we have two kids together..he is a recovering addict with four years...

and we have time together...

plus I am aware of my other issues that have nothing to do with dope...
which in my heart contribute to  my lack of power in myself...
and why i choose to go back to dope..