He would snap easily and call me names daily. He started drinking alot and ended up in the hospital twice and threatened to kill me multiple times. He even threatened my life infront of my friend. When she defended me he beat her up. Punched her in the face and all. But I was so in love with him I couldn't leave him.


Regardless of any issues he has with addiction, you need some help. No sane healthy person can come close to accepting this kind of behavior. What you feel is doubtfully love. Love doesn't come with verbal and physical abuse.

Please, please see a counsellor. Get some help. Your BF-picker is broken. Really, really broken. I am sure you deserve a relationship with a wonderful man who actually loves you, in action as well as in words and thoughts. Trust me, it will be easier to find this happiness when you find out why you would except such horrid behavior in a partner.