Hi Scpio. I'm sorry to hear your story.... I'm a loved one of an addict. My husband left me after a 6 year long relationship. I later found out about his relapse. I'll try to offer what little insight I've gained in the last one and a half months...

He never showed any emotions to me yet he said he was in love with me. He would snap easily and call me names daily. 
From my experience, this is probably due to the meth. If he seemed loving, caring and nice before, it could be the meth and lack of sleep making him like this. On the other hand, there are people who show their true colours once they have you alone, away from prying eyes.

He started drinking alot and ended up in the hospital twice and threatened to kill me multiple times. He even threatened my life infront of my friend. When she defended me he beat her up. Punched her in the face and all. 
This concerns me. Threats on your life are abuse. Beating up your friend, punching her and physically assaulting her, are also abuse. I have seen "nice, normal, caring" people turn abusive when they get their partner alone and isolated (you guys living together). Abuse is never okay. 

But I was so in love with him I couldn't leave him. 
I know how you feel, but if someone threatened my life, or assaulted someone for defending those threats against me (or any other reason) I would not want to be with them. I hope you can see that his abuse of you and your friend is not acceptable.

He relapsed a few times that I know of while we were together. Even then, I couldn't leave him. He told me he wants to be just like his tweaker dad and he likes being miserable and never wants to be happy. Well finally the other day after staying with me he went back to his dads house. Once he got there he stopped calling me and when I called him he would make the convo short and say he'd call back but wouldn't. 
He's under the spell of meth. As painful as it is, you (and I) need to come to terms with this. It's not easy, so don't expect it to be.

I cried on the phone with him expressing my love and how I want to be treated better. He said me crying was annoyig and made me look weak. 
I feel for you. Really, I do. My husband has said the exact same thing to me. That my crying annoys him. It implies that our pain annoys them, doesn't it? It hurts, I know. And I'm so sorry that someone else has had to experience the same thing...

He never called back. I had to call him back. And when I did he was still wide awake at 1am which is unsual for him and he seemed totally not like himself. I asked him if he was high. He denied it. He then broke up with me. I'm so upset because when he broke up with me he showed no emotion. Didn't have a care in the world after all the love I gave and everything I did for him. 
He can't care about anything except meth right now. Another thing you (and I) need to accept. And again, easy to say, not so easy to do. But I believe it's possible.

He's so young,Its so hard to see him being like this. I guess I just need support to move on. I will always love him but i know being with a 18 year old meth addict wouldn't be what's best for me seeing as I am older,don't do drugs and startig college. 
Yes, being with a meth addict isn't best for you. Going to college is a very good thing - look after yourself and your needs, because he is in no position to look after you. But I really think you should be more concerned with the abuse rather than the addiction. 

But it's so hard to let go of him. I am in love with him. He was my best friend.
I know exactly how you feel... I could have written those words myself.


I hope that you can gain some wisdom from the members who will probably post here soon enough... They are helping me. I just wanna say that this will be a roller-coaster ride for you. Just because you two are no longer together, doesn't mean the roller-coaster is no longer running.... It's just a different model. 

These last few weeks have been up and down for me, and I don't expect things to level out any time soon. I think when I accepted that, things were easier. My aunt gave me a good piece of advice that I'd like to pass onto you: "Let yourself feel."

And another from another relative: "Don't expect to get over him in a heartbeat. It will take time. A lot of time. It's like mourning a death. Over time it slowly takes up less and less of your thoughts. You still miss them, but you no longer feel the extreme pain of the loss as you once did."

And.... in saying all that advice.... I know it's easy to say something but harder to do it or feel it. I haven't mastered that yet. I'm still working through it all. I hope you can find the support you need here.

Also, try get some counselling or NarAnon support for yourself. It helps to talk to neutral people (someone who is personally removed from the situation).