another thing...i was told bi polar tend to be bi sexual...or that bpd are very active sexually, when the head shrink at the VA took me aside and said your urine tested positve for sperm..

fu cking sperm...im thinking he was telling me the drugs I had..i was banned from any male contact...because everytime i went to locked down for meth, I had gosh damn sperm in fu cking urine..

i thought, are you fuc ki g people for real..the main issue was the drug addiction not who or how many times i screwed...

I also, believed and sometimes still do...that I think more like a man, and get along better with men or very UNGIRLY WOMEN.....when I took my asvab for the marine corps they said I was more mechanically inclined...they wanted me to do Motor t mechainics....um, no im a chick..i wanna do admin...they said i didnt score well enough...

can that effect it too..your sex drive..? im not real smart on the mind and what part works what..

i do know for a fact, that I am 1000% messed up in chemical part..of my head


fear

imho is what keeps people in the missionary style...*giggles*