Thanks Robbie but I do think that maybe you are being a little hostile , please do not take it the wrong way. I am not attacking you but I just think it is not good to fight fire with fire. I will only get close to people here if they are willing to help me. One more thing, I understand that being bullied can make you feel like killing yourself but do not do it, you are worth so much more. You say that you are married correct ? Think about your wife as you are no good to her dead. I am sure people here have tried to help, they might just not be able to understand what you go through, it is difficult for non borderlines to understand us. I hope you don't use but if you do I understand as I am there as well, just be safe. I will keep you in my prayers.