Have you ever considered how others on this board who have the same psych dx as yours feel when you say things about relapse sounding unstoppable when you add it to the mix? It's hard for me not to borrow your excuses because they are highly manipulative and guilt-trippish. They might work on some people, or at least engage them in a 21-page long debate. Heck, a part of me would like to feel popular and in control over something. However, a bigger part of me just wants to function normally and find recovery from lifelong maladaptive behavior that predates my first use of drugs.

I feel very offended by you, but that is something that I have to own. I'm not giving you power over me. And it's a delusion that you run KCI. It's just a matter of the squeaky wheel getting the grease.

As a life lesson, I'm glad I have run into you in cyberspace. I now know how my sister felt when I got all of the attention for being the one with problems when she had a few of the same issues and was trying to deal with them the best she knew how.

Gotta go call my sister, and that's a rare thing. Must tell her I love her.